Thursday, May 26, 2016

One Of The Hardest Things


It's not something that comes easy. It goes against all societal norms. It goes against our feelings and thinking patterns as human beings. I don't know about you but when I get angry, forgiveness is the last thing on my mind. I would rather lash out and give somebody a verbal "what-for". We try to avenge ourselves. As believers, we are commanded to love our enemies and pray for those who despitefully use us. Romans 12:19 says  "Do not take revenge, my dear friends, but leave room for God's wrath, for it is written: "It is mine to avenge; I will repay," says the Lord".

To forgive, we must look at the condition of our hearts. Lately, I have had a hard time. I am bitter, angry, and fed up with a certain situation.  Even writing this, I want to be free, but I also want vengeance! I'm just being real with you. A wise sister in Christ told me earlier that God is using this situation to grow me. He wants to see how I will respond. He wants me to seek Him, allow vengeance to be His and allow the Holy Spirit to change my heart. This is not something that I can do of my own will.

I am a mess. Rotten, dirty and broken, but I want to act as though I am superior to someone else and refuse to extend forgiveness. This stops today! I may not feel love in my heart, but I CHOOSE it. I surrender to the Lord. I want Him to change me from the inside out. Give me His words and thoughts. Give me the strength to extend love and turn the other cheek. God's word says "If you love only those who love you, what reward is there for that? Even corrupt tax collectors do that much. If you are kind only to your friends, how are you different from anyone else? Even pagans do that. But you are to be perfect, even as your Father in heaven is perfect." Matthew 5:46-48 (NLT). I want to be different! I want to be set apart! Undignified in my pursuit for God. Going against the grain and against what is thought to be "normal".

God's grace is new every morning. He gives us another chance even when we screwed up the day, hour and moment before. He forgives us for all of our sins. He meets us where we are in the middle of all of our yuck and LOVES us!! I don't deserve any of what God gives me but he gives it freely. Why can't I let go of my flesh, surrender to God and forgive? Jesus was beaten, mocked and scorned, yet He forgave. God watched His ONLY son go through hell to save ME! I am unworthy but God says he loves me and that I am seated in heavenly places with Him. I need to start acting like it!

1 comment :

Dalton said...

Nailed it on this one!